I have spent much of this afternoon online, checking and re-checking e-mail and Googling every possible variance on the words "Haiti adoption" ... searching in vain for something that will connect me with my boys and confirm this crazy hope inside of me that all will work out on this trip.
I am trying to put feet to my faith. In fact, at 2 a.m. this morning I found myself researching the US passport application process for minors yet again and printing out multiple copies of form DS-3053 (the form which gives consent for one parent to obtain passports without the other present) which Pedro will sign and we will have notarized before my trip - just in case.
But in the end I am reminded that there is not going to be a voice from the sky or a bolt of lightning to tell me how this is going to play out. Instead, this is one more exercise in waiting patiently on the Lord for His decision, not mine. Frankly, I am not very good at this part.
Psalms 46:10 says "Be still, and know that I am God: I will be exalted among the heathen, I will be exalted in the earth." I am going to do my best to dwell on this for the rest of today. Thy will be done, Lord ...
I am trying to put feet to my faith. In fact, at 2 a.m. this morning I found myself researching the US passport application process for minors yet again and printing out multiple copies of form DS-3053 (the form which gives consent for one parent to obtain passports without the other present) which Pedro will sign and we will have notarized before my trip - just in case.
But in the end I am reminded that there is not going to be a voice from the sky or a bolt of lightning to tell me how this is going to play out. Instead, this is one more exercise in waiting patiently on the Lord for His decision, not mine. Frankly, I am not very good at this part.
Psalms 46:10 says "Be still, and know that I am God: I will be exalted among the heathen, I will be exalted in the earth." I am going to do my best to dwell on this for the rest of today. Thy will be done, Lord ...
2 comments:
Oh Stephanie... I am right beside you. I completely understand. It alwasys feels like there is one more thning you can do to make sure everything goes quicker... I know this obsession and it hurts. You read something negative about another case and you tailspin... but you get jealous when you read about the positive too. It's crazy and painful. I know we need to give all of this to God - so maybe that is part of this process... learning to Be Still and Let God. It's so hard, this I know. Love, Jill
Stephanie,
It makes my heart excited to see you believeing God for a miracle!! I am checking and rechecking my e-mail as well just waiting for the the correction on the other twins paperwork to clear for her passport.So far it has been 4 or 5 weeks.
Iam truly praying praying for you!!
Bless you,
Kristy Kuenzi
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